Has a veteran not suffered enough?
Why must we live the rest of our lives in pain?
Some of the time I wonder if the ones that didn’t make it back got a better deal.
I live in physical pain everyday while others that do nothing their whole life live easy.
We pump our bodies full of medications just to make it out of bed to go on with life.
We take more medications to make it past lunch.
We take medications to help us eat so we don’t throw our bodies out of whack.
We take medications to help us “get a restful” night’s sleep.
The question is when don’t we take medications. I think I am at the point where I am taking meds so I can take other meds without counteracting the medications I took earlier in the day.
I should buy stocks in the pharmaceutical companies.
Shoot at this rate I should own the company’s by now.
I try to tell myself that things will get better, don’t give up hope. But it seems like I say that and I pray every day for things to get better, for things to change for the good and it never happens. Everyone says hang in there things will get better. Well my arms are getting tired from hanging in there. What is the use of hanging in there? So they can come up with a new drug that has the same side effects as the other 30 million ones out there?
I am not sure if it is just me, or if it is the meds or the PTSD. But I hold myself to a higher standard than most people hold themselves too. I expect nothing but the best from me and it seems like I fail at every turn of the coroner I make. I wish I could be able to meet my own standards, but even if I think I meet them I change them on myself.
The worst part is I have been lazy; I don’t try to meet my own standards half the time. I have just been dragging on the ground so much I am not sure if I can even pick myself up by the boot straps to even try to make anything happen.
Part of me thinks I just have given up on everything and on myself. The other part of me just thinks the other part of me is a whining crying idiot and needs to suck it up and just let life pass me by and jump on the train down the road once I get some stuff sorted out.
I just don’t understand why they keep pushing medications out then a few months or years later you see all these commercials (in between the vote for me ads) saying if you took this drug call us there is a zillion dollar fund and you might be entitled to money.
I know the drug companies do these trials with say 500 people or so and give some the medication and others not. To see the side effects of all these drugs but really is that a good enough sample size? If the FDA approved them why do we end up getting a ton of recalls on medications saying it is so risky? Do the pharmaceutical companies have the FDA in their back pocket or something? Seems kind of funny that it is approved now, then all of the sudden well it is not so great after how many lives are damaged in one way or another. Will money really bring someone back after their drug killed them?
I know supposedly the federal government has cracked down on the pharmaceutical companies and how they are all buddy buddy with the doctors. If that is the case, then why do I see a bunch of advertisements in their waiting room, in the exam room, in the hall way and everywhere you look. Why not take the money they spend on that kind of stuff and the advertisements on TV and spend it on developing the drug better. I don’t care what new drug is out there for this and that. What I do care is my doctor to have MY best interest in mind. Not what the drug rep that just left told him about their drug and how it is the next big thing.
Maybe this is just me. Maybe I am the only one who wants to see his daughter walk across the stage when she graduates high school and college. I don’t just want to be pushed there in a wheelchair and not know what is going on around me, I want to be aware and be able to jump up and down and act like a crazy fool when they call her name out.
I just don’t understand!
I want to hear your thoughts. I don’t want to hear you agree with me. Post a comment on the blog why you agree or disagree. I don’t mind people not agreeing with everything I say or do.
Just to give you all a heads up I will be starting back up the Q and A that I did every Thursday a while ago. So ask all and any questions you like. I will reply to each one of them. Even if it is to say I don’t want to reply or care to talk about that. Just so you know I am not ignoring you.
Don’t give up the fight
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